Tuesday, December 26, 2006

From Belize to St Louis

Vacations. Adventures. Things we look forward to. Whatever it may be, it is so tempting to idealize them. Like a sailboat trips through the Caribbean to the Belize coral reef. Sounds idyllic. The night before the bus ride to the coast I got sick—bad. Twice I buckled to the sidewalk in pain. Nathan had just arrived and was wondering what in the world happened to me—“what’s in the water down here?” he must have thought as I was on the verge of passing out.

We reached the coast to reunite with some friends and embark on our perfect journey to paradise. But why was it raining? That wasn’t part of the plan. It’ll let up in a hour or so. An hour or so later—it’ll let up by tonight. That night—no worries, it’ll fine by tomorrow. Tomorrow—certainly it’ll clear up soon. Soon—nope!

We hunkered down in belly of the ship playing Texas Hold ‘em as the captain and crew braved the bad weather and pounding rain. It wasn’t the most perfect situation, but it actually worked out well as I got to know the other passengers quite quickly: a fun couple from England, two in peace corps, one dude from DC, two affectionate girls from Sweden, my two Oregonian friends, a Kentucky, and Nathan. We sailed across the lake to a river winding its way through the jungle with steep, densely vegetated walls rising out of the water on either side.

The rain lasted two days before it cleared up. We were anchored right on top of the Belize coral reef, less than 100 meters from the continental shelf which is a wall dropping strait off 2200+ meters. I snorkeled and scuba dived in the clear Caribbean water. And for the first time, skinny me could actually float! We fished off the side of the boat and all our food was caught the day of---usually the hour of; now that’s fresh seafood!

A highlight: I saw my first live shark, actually two of them, and my response was much different than I anticipated. Sharks are large animals with big teeth. These sharks were about 2 meters long. So what was my reflex when I looked off the edge of the boat to see those vicious animals? The same thing anyone would do: I quickly grabbed my snorkel, fins, and underwater camera and jumped in after them!! True story.

Upon my return, we stayed in a small hostel cloistered in the jungle growth. In fact, it was only accessible by small boat. As we motored down the lake heading directly toward the shore, I turned to Nate asking where he thought we were going. Shortly later, we saw a small river inlet heading into the jungle. We squeezed the boat up the river, sleeking through the jungle past a turtle and up to the hostel. Needless to say, it pretty much rocked.

After dropping Nate off at the airport, I headed north with five friends to the relaxing paradise of Semuc Champe. It was a full day of travel ending with about an hour along a bumpy dirt road to this secluded hideaway. We enjoyed our first day tubing down another jungle river hoping that weird animals weren’t lurking beneath the surface.

Then came one of the most adventurous days of my life. It’s hard to describe. Perhaps you should just go. We took a bus from our hostel, El Ritiro, (which by the way has great vegetarian food) to the caves of Semuc. Here we slipped into swimsuits, strapped on our sandals, grabbed a candle, and hiked up to the caves. It is here where a small river weaves its way under the mountains. So we lit our candles, climbed into the water, and swam upriver through the caves. I can’t tell you how amazing it looked to see twenty or so people swimming through underwater canyons seeing only a trail of small flickering flames silently echo off the steep walls rising to nowhere. It was surreal. We swam and waded, climbed ladders and slid through waterfalls.

A personal highlight was about half way into the caves when I was the sole person holding a lit candle since everyone else had extinguished theirs in one way or another. We came to a waterfall where we needed to pass through it and around the back side to get across the river. I handed the candle to a buddy and yelled to him over the loud rush of the water “don’t let it go out!” When I reached the other side, I signaled for him to throw it to me, convinced that it would never make it alive. The candle soared in slow motion precariously through the fall’s mist as the flame shrank down to hug the wick. I reached my wet hand out, snatched the candle, and quickly cradled it under my body absolutely stupefied that it was actually still lit. The group gave a quick and (admittedly) well-deserved round of applause and then continued.

When we finished, I couldn’t believe what I had just done. I mean, I never even dreamed of doing something like this. I didn’t even know it existed. We proceeded to a rope swing that launched us into the water and then stepped it up to jump from a bridge (which I willfully observed).

We continued to the beautiful pools of Semuc Champe. These blue-green pools sat in a pristine jungle valley surrounded by no one and nothing. That was the beauty of it. Sure there were a couple tourists, but not many. No big luxury tour busses packed to the max with retirees taking pictures of everything and paying way too much money for everything else.

The main part of the river forcefully plummets into an underground cavern for about a quarter mile or so before plunging back on the surface. It is truly an awesome sight to see the river’s power as it surges into an abyss of blackness. People had fallen in, but no one ever survived. On top of that cavern rests the calm pools of Semuc Champe filled by some streams that meander down the steep valley walls. Each pool gently cascades into the next, silently resting to invite passersby, like myself, to take a relaxing swim. So I did. In fact, I took the most relaxing and enjoyable swim of my life. I felt like a little kid again when we had to leave. “I don’t want to…. You can’t make me…. Just one more dive mom…..no, one more….”

The minibus was waiting to take us home and it was nice to sit shotgun for the rare legroom offered in Guatemala. “This day was unforgettable” I though to myself. We soon rounded a corner to find a huge truck struggling to make it up the steep hill directly in front of us. Upon further investigation, Guatemala decided to do some repaving that afternoon on that hill. So, everyone had to drive on the dirt—no, the muddy shoulder. So the big rig was stuck, even with about twenty small Guatemalans trying to push it. We tried to get our minibus up the steep, but got stuck as well. After a half hour of watching, laughing, and pushing, we started our walk. They said it was somewhere between 5-10 miles back to town, but they are chronic under-estimators. The first half was all up hill, the second all downhill. After about an hour and a half of walking on a dirt road at night through the jungle, we finished the up hill and started making our decent to our hostel. Of course, it was then when our minibus caught up to us to bring us back home. I was grateful, but wished I could have ridden the bus uphill, and walked the downhill!

After four flight changes, I made back home safely but my bags didn’t. I enjoyed my short stay in Seattle with my folks. Thankfully I made it back to Seattle to go to my dear friend Heidi’s beautiful wedding. It was a blessing to see her again. Now I am in St Louis where I spent Christmas and where I will be until Tim’s wedding. I’m looking forward to the birth of my nephiece (it’ll be a surprise). This next month holds many decisions, particularly as to if I’ll be going to seminary and back to Alaska. Thanks for reading.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

A Christmas note

"One reason that faith is the way God saves us is that faith gives glory to God. That is, faith calls attention to and magnifies the glory of God. Faith puts us in the position of weak and dependent and puts God in the position of strong and independent and merciful. I'm the needy one, He's the rich one. I'm the foolish one, He's the wise one. I'm the hungry one, He's got the bread. I'm the thirsty one, He's got the water. Faith is empty. And He is full--that's why He did it this way! It's the best news in all the world that we only need to be empty to be saved. You just have to admit it and marvel---just fall down. Can anyone fall down? Who cannot fall down? Who cannot be weak? Who cannot be empty?It is not hard to be saved. Unless, you want to be God: Full, strong, self-sufficient. Oh, the way of salvation through faith by grace is so beautiful if you are willing to let God be God." ~John Piper

How simply marvelous is this news. And this is what I celebrate, not family, friends, or food; not kindness, goodness, or even love. But that I only know these things because of His grace, and how much greater do I know them when I am empty and when this world fails to captivate my heart and yearnings. Oh that we might be delivered from the deep craving of materialism that has sadly become so inherent with Christmas, distracting our hearts and robbing our faith from its fullness in Christ. Have a merry Christmas because Christ so loves and fills the empty.

Friday, December 08, 2006

Off to Belize

I'm sitting in a small cafe on the east coast of Guatemala, relaxing with some friends and preparing to hop onto a big catamaran sailboat to cruise out to the Belize coral reef for the next week. This is my present for finishing school strong and I think it's a great idea. Hopefully, it will be a time of relaxation as I read a book or two, enjoy the company of friends, and snorkel and scuba dive with sharks. And to those who Nathan Mesaros, he says hi from Belize as well!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

One of my favorite days

Today I thought I'd be in Guatemala City. It's funny how plans so change down here. Instead, I ended up in a very small village in the hills replacing a roof on someone's house. It feels good to be dirty again and to have spent energy and sweat to help others.

The family we helped live in a very small house (if you can call it that). They have 10 children. We gave them a roof for free. They offered to make us dinner, but we knew that'd break the bank for them. We declined. They did buy me a fine bottle of water to say thank you. It was some of the finest water I've ever had.

I wasn't sure what I'd do for lunch. My construction partner looked at me. "My wife made us some sandwiches." And for anyone who knows me, there's really one thing that I don't eat because of allergies. "Do you like cheese?" he said with a smile. That was it. "I love it!" I gratefully smiled back. "Good, cause that's what we got."

Tomorrow, I'm returning to hopefully finish reconstructing the sides of this house. It's kinda fun. These aren't super professional homes. This one was built out of corn stalks! It brings me back to my childhood since it's more like building a fort or tree house. Yet, these are people's homes for life.

Today I walked through a community of very poor people. Homes built from mud or corn stalks. Average family size of somewhere around 8 kids. Only one or two beds for all of them. Kids flying plastic bags tied to a string. Such poverty and such sadness. And yet somehow, they held such joy. They live on the edge of coffee plantations where parents pick coffee beans for next to nothing. Those beans are the very same beans that we buy for exorbitant amounts of money from Starbucks. I love these people. They are beautiful. I will be back tomorrow and hopefully more. It is so rewarding to spend my time and money helping these lovely sons and daughters of God.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Please pray

So tomorrow I will be heading into the slums of Guatemala to help the poorest of the poor. Pray for opportunities to share the love of Jesus with these people. Pray that I may have a willing and humble heart, eager and bold to serve. There are many gangs making it a very dangerous place, yet the missionaries I will be with have been welcomed in these communities. Nevertheless, pray for safety. And above all, pray that He will be made big, I made little.

For His Glory Alone!